The world wins this round
I think I’m done for now. Like any fun ride, it eventually breaks down and requires maintenance or mothballing.
To poorly paraphrase Martin Laird, what we actually experience in the physical world is often not our true source of pain and suffering. It is the stories we tell ourselves about what we are experiencing that causes it. Getting caught in these stories we tell ourselves is a mind game that leads nowhere good and nowhere real.
Keep on being awesome.